My gloom has lifted somewhat and the feelings of giving up the bike have passed. I tend to think about his crash (I don't know any details) when I'm riding. I always ride defensively, even if I'm having a bit of a tear-up, which makes me slower than a lot of other riders through traffic but I don't consider my self to be invincible or car drivers to be telepathic so I ride accordingly.

I'm, like, free as a bird, man
I just heard on the radio that "english" tennis player Greg Drugheadski has been cleared of taking performance drugs. That's good, now he'll be able to concentrate on not winning wimbledon.

His funeral is on friday. I have been thinking a lot. I discussed it with stewsie in the printroom who rides the same route, he told me the the kidbrooke interchange, where the crash happened is "a chaotic nightmare". I dont fancy finding out for myself.
Last night on the telly I saw that graphic ad with the invisible cars where the biker doesn't know what hits him.While I appreciate that it is aimed at telling riders to ride defensively I think it is too much to show the actor on the floor with blood running down his face. Whenever this ad comes on wifey gives me a look and says "I'm saying nothing"

Joy and pain
I haven't blogged for over a month due to the fact I've been very busy at work and home and my life is dull.
But things change and it is with a mixture of great joy and deep sadness that I post today.
After many months of trying I am pleased to say that my beautiful wife is pregnant with our 3rd, she is 12 weeks, we had the scan on monday and everything checked out fine. "the baby" is due on 9th sept and I can't wait.
Now the difficult bit, at work in the site where I'm based I'm in a bikers mail group which has almost 50 members, only a few of which I actually know personally. One of these few had an accident on the way to work on tuesday and died. He was the only person in the group (apart from the BCH) that I knew very well and I feel quite upset by the news, he was a great bloke who was a real biking enthusiast, he worked in IT and was a great help to me when I was trying to decide which course to take.
At the moment I can't seem to shake the feeling that I should give up biking, I lost a very close friend a few years back in a bike crash but it didn't affect me in the same way. I cried my heart out at his funeral but not once did I consider giving up riding. Giving up the bike would make wifey very happy.
I am not going to make a kneejerk reaction on this, time to think is required.